So.  Last night I talked to James, and I asked him for one more chance.  I guess it was more like begging... I don't know.  I've never felt this empty and scared and vulnerable and pathetic in my life.

I'm begging a boy who barely feels anything for me to be with me again so I can show him I can be whatever he wants, because I am too scared to live ( Read more... )

I'm going to get him back.  I'm going to make it work.  I know it's probably still only temporary, and I know he's probably not worth my time, but I am still in love with him and I refuse to let him go without trying.

My plan is simple in theory, but will be difficult at times:  step one, lose weight;  step two, get a job;  step three, stop being so ( Read more... )